I dont know my heart anymore. I dont understand it at all.

Everything ive been dreaming about is finally here, right in front of my face and yet, I still want you. I still need you.

Its probably stupid but I still believe its going to work between us eventually. I spend every minute of every day hoping you’ll just call me up, call me up and say you love me. If you’re the only thing I need to be complete, how can I not be the same thing for you?

I spend way too much time thinking about you. and thinking I must just be totally wrong. And wondeirng what the hell is going to happen? when? If ever?

I feel stuck. I cant move forward, I cant move back. And honestly, I deserve better than that.

I guess I shouldnt have given my heart away to you, cause now I cant control it; YOU DO. I wish I hadnt given it to you but even more I wish youd just take it and keep it for as long as I needed you to.

Sometimes I feel like im crazy but then I realizes I only am when it comes to you. And it always does; it always comes back to you. I can try all I want but I’ll still be stuck with you. Until you set my heart free.

I dont know my heart anymore. because its yours. 100% completely.

I feel like writing a novel. Just to get it all out. I feel like if I could tell you everything that inside my head, it would just be fine. Be perfect. At least it wouldnt be driving me crazy anymore. I feel like writing you a letter, sticking it in the mail, and just waiting for the day when it got to you. The anticipation would build and then hopefully it would have a beautiful ending. I want it to. But I dont think it will. Nothing ever seems to. I feel like shouting I LOVE YOU at the top of my lungs at you. Youre so frustrating and so wonderful at the same time. I hate that but I love it too. You’re freaking beautiful and I dont understand why I cant be without you, I can always be without anyone. WTF?

To every girl who’s dreamed of her only one, be careful. We’ve all heard the stories our whole life; he’ll be your knight in shining armor, he’ll sweep you off your feet and best of all, he’ll take your breath away. Dont trust in these words, dont think your heart will ever know better than your head. Let your mind rule you, because otherwise, you will end up broken. You will end up shattered. You will cry until your eyes run dry and your heaving your guts up. It wont be anything like what those fairytales say. You will fall, you will slip on your ass and you will fall, and then, when you think he’s going to to be there to catch you, he’ll be walking out the door. Listen to the voice inside your head, dont let the beat of your heart over-rule it. Be careful girls, because prince charmings are nothing but jerks in disguise.

You came in on your own. You worked your way into my life and made me feel less alone. You were there, you were open, you were funny and I needed that, needed you. You flirted your way into this heart, you made it beat just a little bit faster. It picked up, you breathed this life into it, you made it feel full. You lead the way, you acted as if what we wanted was the same thing. But now I know, and can I just say something? Fuck you.

We loved and we lost

and now your’re gone.

I ended it, I fucked up.

You wanted it to work.

I wanted to walk out.

I worry about you.

I think about you.

And honestly I miss you.

I want back what we had

but I’m not sure if what I want is you

or just the feeling I had.

I’d never felt so cared for,

so loved, and so needed.

And really, I suck.

I took that all away from you.

I threw it all out without even a second glance.

I’m sorry.

You piss me off. I hate you.

But I miss you too.

I dont even know where to begin. Life, its a funny thing; a funny, depressing, sometimes really hard thing. OR some like to call it a blessing. I think its a little bit of everything. Its a mess, the truth, a misunderstanding, its a smile, a headache, its the little and the big things.. its everything all crumpled up together and its never simple, no matter how hard you try to make it that way. But in all honesty after everything I’ve been through, I’ve realized life really is one big simple thing.. LIFE, its just made up of a bunch of little complications. Rules, Laws, Jobs, School, Family, Friends, Arguments, Disagreements, Politics, Tears, Fears, Feelings, Love, Broken Hearts, Death. Life is just a big simple tubberwarre bowl full of complex ingredients. And all we can do is mix it all together and wait to see what comes of it.

(via sunlightcrushing, mymindwandersoff)

I love this movie! These guys are TOO cute!!

yourbiggestfann:

Okay, I got this idea only a few minutes ago, but I think it’s something we should all agree to do. Enough with the whining, enough with the complaining and beating up on everyone else’s opinions. On October 1st, we should have only POSITIVE COMMENTS. How can we do this?

• Leave people positive asks.
• Give people compliments.
• Be nice to your new followers.

Let’s make each other feel good. I think we can do this, don’t you? Reblog this if you agree, let’s get the message out!

ps: IF YOU WANT TO MAKE ANOTHER POSTERISH THING FOR THIS, go for it, but leave me a link to it in my ask box, and i’ll reblog it from you. c:

fuckyeahtattoos:

“Yes, it’s a funny little potion, Felix Felicis. Desperately tricky to make, and disastrous to get wrong. However, if brewed correctly, as this has been, you will find that all your endeavors tend to succeed…” 

 I want this :)!

1). I’m not techinically allergic to anything, I just have ridiculous allergies. (But I will tell people im allergic to lots of things so I wont have to eat them)

2) I read more than anyone person probably should.

3) I cover my mouth when I laugh because I dont like my teeth.

4) I need braces.

5) I love to cook but even more I LOVE to bake!

6) I get headaches a lot, I guess from the allergies.

7). I have about a trillion nicknames.

8) Im never sure about anything, ever.

9) Ive never been east of here.

10) Growing old with someone is a lovely idea, but I try not to make it a priority, it doesnt seem like it ever will be likely.

11). I dont love easily, but when I do I give away every ounce of my heart and my love is always forever.

12). Im cold hearted and insensitive sometimes and I dont know why.

12 1/2) I love dresses.

13). I really enjoy being alone, but sometimes I go crazy and I need company. 

14) My dog Uly, hes pretty much my best friend. I will be the most depressed I have ever been when he dies.

15) I dont want to say im scared of commitment but I guess just feeling so much for someone that I open myself up to hurt. So if I sense someone getting too close Ill probably do something sketchy to fuck it up.

16) I love vintage clothing.

17) God will always be # 1. Im a sinner, I know. But every day I’m trying to build myself up.

18) I just need to focus on me and my life.

19) I find that once your heart is given away, its near impossible to get back.

20) I murmur in my sleep. 

21) I’m scared im going to disappoint everyone around me and I cant handle that.

22) I think Im super awkward.

23) I’m a terrible driver but a good one in my own way. haha.

24) I love google.

25) Im not a very forgiving person. (I wish I was though.) 

25 1/2) I wish i was born in an era where ladies were actually ladies and men actually courted their women.

I wish I was alot of things

verbadjectivenoun:

i’ve probably only listened to this about 4 times tonight… still my summer jam. thanks guy.

mark ronson & the business intl - bang bang bang

veuvenoire:

(via the-kaleidoscope-world)

 these are SO cute!

these words beneath this, that someone wrote.. truley are helpful. take it from a young person who was just feeling rather negative… Thank you!

flytheskies:

skiesturnwhite:

qomaspeakup:

poeticheartache:52hearts:472239364: for-yourlove: thewordsalloverme

It truly breaks my heart to see so many young people like this — hard, broken, and so willfully negative about the world. You have so much more to see, so much light, so much heart, so much happiness to experience whether it’s your own or someone else’s. There’s always going to be something more out there to reach for, love or friendship or just memories worth remembering and holding on to, to fill yourself up with, to keep the glass half full of hope that things can only go up, up, up from here. Know that there will always be things to look forward to right around the corner, that it’s not far, that you’ll get there one day and that soon things will start looking better than ever.

lifeliveson:

justkeeplaughing via acciochristay

 Agreed :D!