This is bad.
Everything just keeps steadily getting worse.
I’ve been so sick and tired feeling for like a week now. And I have SO much shit to get done before may 6th it isnt even funny. I feel like once I start all that bogus online work.. it’ll be easier than I’m expecting.. I just have to start it, which is proving to be a problem because I just keep putting it off. And now I’m sitting here saying to myself over and over everyday a little louder, “FUUUCKKK, I only have 2 months to do a semesters worth of work!!” IM FREAKING THE HECK OUT. but I know I can do it. Its just going to take the focus and determination to finish the stupid shit.
Then, I applied for a job at ABC Cake Shop last week.. and I want it SO bad it isnt even funny, at all. But at the same time, if I were to get it I would be so terrified but I know deep down it would be worth it. So, hopefully I’ll get it. I’m supposed to know by today or tomorrow.
My Mommy’s leg is doing a tad bit better. She had surgery again last week, got that crazy apparatus of her leg. So now she can actually bend it and heal and in a month start putting weight on it again. but with Hanna and Zach doing NOTHING and the house being sucha freakin mess, it just pisses her and Dad off and then they get all made and yell and then that stresses me out. So, all I want to do at home is sleep… and that isn’t conclusive to getting all that school work done.
highlight of my life: 18 in 19 days :) woo. I just have this feeling it really isn’t going to change much though, even though I would like that one years age difference to fix all these problems, I know it won’t.
