frustration settles in.
ARGG. I just don’t even know how to handle my own life anymore.
I got the job at ABC Cakes that I REALLY wanted and now I’m having trouble letting go of the stupid pool job that I always hated? I dont understand. I think its mostly because of the people. I met some of my best best friend there.. but its not like the jobs over, the friendships are. im just being a retard. I think I’ll put in my two weeks notice tomorrow.
and then theres the CONSTANT school work issue. I HAVE TO GRADUATE. there are no ifs about that and i have to catch this shit up, but i dont. I do other things. and i dont understand myself, at all. its so frsutrating because of all moms leg stuff and trying to help do stuff around the house. i just need to focus on that school. its going to become my everything at home, sorry family.
and that brings me to the last problem. my family. and the issue of to move out and get away form their insanity, that eventually drives me to pure aggravation and no nderstanding whatsoever of what to do. because i really need and want to buy a new car but there is no way i can afford to move out and to buy a car and pay the carpayment…. its gnna have to be one or the other. so i just dont know.
I dont know about anything anymore and thats what is the most frustrating I guess. Not knowing. Hmph.
(if there are spelling mistakes. disreguard. I typed this fast, as i was full of frustration.)
