Uncertainity. Insanity. Im trying.
Sometimes I wonder If I’ll finish in time. Sometimes I wonder if its all going to be worth it in the end. Sometimes I wonder where Im gonna be when my life ends. Will I be happy? Will I have my own bakery? A published novel? A husband? Kids? Will I live here in Albuquerque? Uncertainity drives me to insanity. Im uncertain where my lifes going. Im uncertain if I have everyone I need but Im certain moving forward is the best thing. I just hope when I look back all these decisions Im making and all the trouble Ive gone through to get to what I want and what I need will make me realize I did everything I was capable of. That no matter what, Im gnna be happy. Im going to make myself happy by making my dreams come true and that wherever that takes me and whoever that takes me to will be what I need and what I’ve wanted all along even if I did not know it. Sometimes.. life sucks and its hard and I get down and I cant manage to figure anything out but then I look to the people I love and I look within myself and I realize Im the strongest person I know. I’m a smart girl and I dont know where all of these insecurities have come from.. but im trying my best to be certain. Im trying my best to not let the uncertainity drive me to insanity.
